Tuesday, November 15, 2016

my air force man


it's taken me
forever
to come up with the right
words
to say to you
because
you mean so much to me
and watching you leave
is so much harder
than i thought

my big brother
leaving his home
off to save the world
will you forget us
while you're off exploring new places
meeting new people

please don't

it's the little things
i'll miss the most
the conversations we have
over the silliest of things
the way you always listen
no matter what i have to say
all those
stupid
reddit jokes
i'll even miss those

it's so weird
it feels like only recently
we were just little kids
building forts
and exploring the woods
playing sports
and fighting over who was
safe
and who was
out

now we're all grown up
and
i am so proud of you
and even though this
goodbye
is so so hard
the goodbye i denied for so long
and pretended wasn't coming
it's here and
i'm still
so
proud of you

you inspire me daily
to never give up
to always work harder than i thought i could
to stand firm in what i know is true

i know you will do
great things
and
great things
are coming your way
this goodbye is hard
but god has his eye
on you

so go out there
my big brother
make this world safer
and don't forget me
and how much i love you

my air force man

22 comments

  1. Beautiful poem. I understand how it feels - the year before last I had to watch my big brother (aka, best friend) join the Navy, and my two other big brothers are in the Marines. It's hard.

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    1. Thanks. And wow, that's really cool of your brothers, but yes it's hard. Keeping you all in my thoughts <3

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  2. wow. okay, yes. yes. yes. I can't imagine my older sister leaving me...*sobs* someday though...

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  3. Wow, Elizabeth, this is such a heartfelt and beautiful poem. Amazing. <33

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  4. WOW. This is a beautiful, sad poem. I'll be praying for your brother as he serves our country. ♥

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  5. Aww, this is so sweet!

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    Allie D.
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  6. OHHH WOW. The FEELSSS. I can really relate to this in such a real way. Well, maybe not exactly, but they say if you can make people FEEL because of your writing, it is GOOD writing.
    My cousin went off to college this semester and I miss him SOOO much. It's so hard to look back at all of the memories and the days where we used to play airplane upstairs in his house without a care in the world. I miss the way he would always show me love, always be there but not always saying something, it's so strange to me.

    Thanks for sharing this <3

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    1. Aw thank you!
      I totally get what you mean, but I'm thankful for those memories, even when they're hard to think about :)

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  7. Elizabeth, this is BEAUTIFUL. <3 What a blessing it is, to have a close sibling like that. Those goodbyes at the airport before deployment are the roughest things, oh my gosh. I was bawling my eyes out when I hugged my boyfriend before he deployed. (4 more months!) Stay busy and stay strong, girl.

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    1. Thanks, Katie! Yes it was so hard, but I'm proud of him for sure. :)
      I'm praying for your boyfriend and that time goes by quickly. You must be super excited to see him again!

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  8. this is so beautiful, elizabeth <3 i felt this so hard. and i don't have an older brother who's off to save the world. but you are amazing, girl.

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    1. Thank you Autumn, that makes my day :)

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  9. That must be so hard for you - I can only imagine. Sending hugs! xx

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  10. wowowowow this breaks my heart elizabeth. sending tons of hugs and prayers.

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  11. Aww, I can't even imagine how hard this must be! I'll keep y'all in my prayers. <3
    Also, this poem is so, so beautiful. Just, the way you said everything was just so beautiful and real. Like, wow.

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