Sunday, October 23, 2016

i'm ok



how are you
they ask

i'm ok
i say

~

it's 12 am
and i feel
so
very
afraid

every 
noise i hear
shakes me

doubt haunts
all
my thoughts

i toss
and
i turn

~

it's 6 am
and i
don't want to
start this day

it feels
like
too much

but
i lift my feet
and i touch the ground

you've got this
i say
you're ok

~

it's 3 pm
and i feel

empty

no

full

full of doubt
fear
uncertainty
confusion

~

how are you
they ask

i'm ok
i say
with a smile

i hope
maybe
they'll realize
i'm not

that's great
they say
me too

but they don't
so i keep going
i pretend
i lie

~

it's 8 pm
i am so
so 
tired

but the day feels so
long
and i'm afraid
because what if
tomorrow
i don't feel ok
either

~

it's 11 pm
i don't cry
i can't cry
but
i'm confused
because
why do i feel this way

hey papa god
i say
i'm not feeling ok
please
help me

~

sleep comes
and
i'm ok
but
sometimes i'm not
and that's ok too


A little note// Hey guys <3 So lately I've been thinking back a few years ago when I was really struggling. With mental illness awareness week just passing, and some recent events happening close to home, I've been thinking a lot about the concept of being "ok" and how people fake it so much. A few years ago, I was dealing with a lot of anxiety and dark thoughts and I tried so hard to hide it from everyone else. I still deal with anxiety, but I've been realizing the importance of confiding in others.I wrote this because it's ok to not feel ok. And it's ok to tell others you're not ok. So please, if you're dealing with some stuff right now, don't be afraid to talk to someone about it. Your parents, siblings, friends, pastor, me. Don't ever feel like you're alone. And even more importantly, don't ever forget that we have a Lord who loves you, and He never gives you more than you can handle. You've got this.


With love,

Elizabeth

11 comments

  1. Awesome post. Love this so much <3 <3
    Indeed, there's nothing we can't handle through Him.

    xx
    Steph
    strictlystephanie.blogspot.com

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  2. Elizabeth, this is so important! Thanks for sharing. It's ok not to feel ok and we all need to realize that!

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  3. I relate to this so much, Elizabeth. The fact that every time someone ask how I am, I lie. Why am I afraid of being honest?! Thank you; this was encouraging. xx

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  4. you're right. It is ok to be not ok. seriously tho, why do I forget that so often??? thanks for this <333

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  5. This is so sweet. I am not okay and I am okay with it is such a powerful message. I just posted something on my blog talking about my feelings lately and this post was very therapeutic to read write after I had spilled my guts on to the blog post.

    I love you and thank you. Struggles make you stronger.

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  6. This is beautiful and I know the feeling of faking it! Keep fighting the good fight, it'll make you stronger.
    Lovely post. ♥
    Blessings,
    Kara

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  7. So great. My philosophy for life is always be honest. I hate it when people aren't okay and they say they are okay.

    One thing I've learned in life is always be honest. XOXO

    With love and all joy,
    Allie D.
    www.alliesblogdesigns.blogspot.com
    www.friendlovesatalltimes.blogspot.com
    www.sincerelyallied.blogspot.com
    www.spreadingmyjoy.blogspot.com

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  8. Thanks for your words, sweet friend.
    -rachel

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  9. This breaks my heart so much, but it's filled with so much truth. Love you, Elizabeth ♥

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